I'm sad (and you probably have no idea)
So.. it's been 4 days since Sunday.
I wasn't told that you celebrated it on Saturday, so I waited until dusk sets on your side of the world to wish you a Happy Eid so that my wish didn't sound inappropriate while you were still fasting.
I even typed out a sincere apology for anything that I had done to hurt your feelings.. only to find out later on Instagram that eid was already over on your part, but you didn't even bother to send a simple "Selamat Hari Raya" like you did last year.
But that wasn't much of a big deal compared to the fact that my apology was only responded with a 'I forgive you'. Not saying that that's the wrong answer, but you could have least returned my apology with a "likewise". My heart broke a little because it sorta implies that you don't consider the fact that you could have hurt my feelings before and that I only saw past them because you're extra special to me.
I didn't realize that these small things had been bugging me a lot, because I always talk about communicating feelings to each other so it would only be ironic if I don't.
I broke down yesterday because our cancelled facetime sessions because that was the extra droplet that made the glass of hurt water spill. I was looking forward to talking with you even before raya but all that waiting for nothing (twice) only made my excitement for it evaporate into thin air. That one wasn't a big deal either but that was enough to make me ruminate over all the issues above.
So for that, I'm sorry that ignored your last text. I did that intentionally because I don't make a lot of sense when I'm upset with you. I hope you at least got the hint :)
I wasn't told that you celebrated it on Saturday, so I waited until dusk sets on your side of the world to wish you a Happy Eid so that my wish didn't sound inappropriate while you were still fasting.
I even typed out a sincere apology for anything that I had done to hurt your feelings.. only to find out later on Instagram that eid was already over on your part, but you didn't even bother to send a simple "Selamat Hari Raya" like you did last year.
But that wasn't much of a big deal compared to the fact that my apology was only responded with a 'I forgive you'. Not saying that that's the wrong answer, but you could have least returned my apology with a "likewise". My heart broke a little because it sorta implies that you don't consider the fact that you could have hurt my feelings before and that I only saw past them because you're extra special to me.
I didn't realize that these small things had been bugging me a lot, because I always talk about communicating feelings to each other so it would only be ironic if I don't.
I broke down yesterday because our cancelled facetime sessions because that was the extra droplet that made the glass of hurt water spill. I was looking forward to talking with you even before raya but all that waiting for nothing (twice) only made my excitement for it evaporate into thin air. That one wasn't a big deal either but that was enough to make me ruminate over all the issues above.
So for that, I'm sorry that ignored your last text. I did that intentionally because I don't make a lot of sense when I'm upset with you. I hope you at least got the hint :)
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